Fourtyone.

I know i mentioned that i made my own version of ABC. I am calling it BBC because my name starts with a B and even though it's easier than ABC, it will still be a boot camp for me. I'm prepared with foods i can eat to survive this week, but i think i'm just going to blow every weekend and end up adding those days onto the end. My boyfriend forces me to eat, so even though i don't eat that much, what i eat around him fills if not exceeds my calorie limit for the day.

I always have the drive to not eat on weekdays, but when it comes to the weekend i don't know what happens. I'm around my boyfriend and i feel like i don't have a strict schedule for the day, so i don't stay within limits. Granted i haven't gone way over the limit, it still counts as "i am a fatass add that day to the end of the diet."

I've only added one day to the end so far because i went to a sweet sixteen and i knew i couldn't not eat, so i embraced the day as an eating day and forgot about BBC. I hope i can start posting every day and tell you (whoever even reads this) whether i passed or failed each day. I'm going into this knowing that most people fail at least a few days of ABC, so if i do it's not something to kill myself over (unless i have some crazy huge binge). I will simply add the day to the end.

I am expecting many school weeks filled with BBC and many weekends filled with depression from overeating. meh.

I'm sorry about how much i just rambled about the same thing. I think all this food is getting to my head. I need to stop eating... now.