OneTwentyThree.

I got semi excited that i'd lost weight since dancing again and now my diet is slowly being restricted and i was ready to go hardcore on tuesday until i realized last night that i don't have dance this week.

Next week i guess.

So glad my life is going fantastic and makes so much sense right now.....

OneTwentyTwo.

Cutting
Suicidal
Fat
School
Stress
Anxiety
Eating
Starving
Dancing
Fainting
Hiding
Conversations
Anxiety
Depression
Stress
Anxiety
Conversation
Depression
Stress
Depression
Suicidal
Cutting
Conversation
Anxiety
Eating
Cutting
Stress
Fat
Depression


It all comes and goes. Then comes and goes again.
And Again.
And Again.
And Again.

And those conversation^^ are conversations with the BF about cutting and suicide and him wanting me to tell my parents. Hence why they lead to everything else.

I lost four pounds. That's the only positive thing right now besides how much my boyfriend loves me. Although i don't know how he could love someone like me. I can't love me.