Twentyone.

Woo ! down to 100.4 ! i can't believe it. I thought i ate more than i should have, but i guess i did ok if i still lost weight. On another good note, i'm still using the bathroom even though i stopped taking the laxatives. Only about every other day, but that's so much better than it was. I'm so glad my body is functioning =] However, not eating is starting to make me really tired especially because i went to the beach today. Not a good idea..... 

Unfortunately there's a few more bad notes to come. One, i know i ate too much today. about 600 calories, but about 100 at 8:30 pm which is a terrible time to eat. It's all going to be absorbed while i sleep and i know i'm going to wake up fatter. The best i can hope is that my stomach looks big now because i drank over a bottle of water since 8. Two, i've returned to cutting. I had been doing it randomly since the beginning of June, but now i know i'm addicted again. I get anxiety when i don't do it and i feel so much better while i'm doing it. I know that has nothing to do with the main theme of this blog (eating) but i started cutting because of my eating habits. and finally three, i'm not going to be here for the next week. I'll be here tomorrow and i'll post one last entry before i leave on saturday. I'll be gone until the following saturday. When i get back i'll catch up on everyone's blogs that i usually read i promise. leave me some comments while i'm gone too ;)

Alright, i feel like shit because i'm fucking obese right now so i'm going to go to bed so that i can wake up early and clean and pack all day. fan-fuckin-tastic.

Hope you all are doing better than me

stay strong xoxo