OneFifteen.

So much fucking shit i don't want to deal with.

The bf i broke up with continuously calls my cell and my house despite me telling him i don't want to talk.
Plus, why the hell would he want to talk to me after i ended our 2 year relationship?

I also got a lot more than sucked into the drama of my friends breakup. Let me tell you that its not fun to have everyone hate you and be called slash blamed for being the reason why they broke up.
That whole situation is still settling.

I'm still a gargantuan beast. My mom told me that she noticed it too. Although she added "but you were SO skinny before that you're still skinny now"

That seems to be everyones response. That now I'm just normal skinny. They all noticed but they thought i was really skinny before anyways.


I DON'T WANT TO BE JUST NORMAL SKINNY. I DON'T WANT TO JUST BE AVERAGE. I WANT TO FUCKING STAND OUT. I WANT TO CATCH PEOPLES EYE AND I WANT TO BE A LOT MORE THAN NORMAL SKINNY. I NEED TO BE ABNORMALLY SKINNY AND THEN SOME.

I'm switching birth controls today. I hope it makes me fucking nauseous so that i won't ever eat. Then i'll tell the doctor that i fucking love this birth control. Then i'll be a skinny little bitch. Fucking finally.